Day 3

Sin and Redemption

from the Mourning and Dancing reading plan

Jeremiah 17:9-10, Isaiah 64:6-7, Galatians 5:19-21, Romans 3:23, John 11:25, Ephesians 1:3-10, Hebrews 4:15-16, Romans 8:31-39

BY Amanda Bible Williams

I have a favorite sin.

I want so badly to hate it, and sometimes I do. When I see its effects on the people I love, when I’m granted an objective view of its effects on my own heart, when I remember how utterly contrary to the gospel it is—those are the times my sin brings me to my knees. But on most days, any average, busy day, I ignore it. Not only that, I tend to it under the radar, taking care to subtly stoke its flame.

It’s the sin of self-absorption.

There are flashier sins out there, and I have plenty of those to repent of too. But my bent to only see the world as relative to me—what I think, what I need, what I hope, what I believe—has single-handedly caused more collateral damage than most of those other sins put together.

It is the sin I’ve used to belittle my children,
putting my need for space and silence before their need for love and listening.

It is the sin I’ve used to put off my friends,
glossing over their hurts and hard spots in favor of redirecting their eyes to my own.

It is the sin I’ve used to not love my neighbors,
ignoring instead of listening, choosing indifference over engagement.

It is the sin I’ve used to quench the Holy Spirit,
looking past conviction and clutching harder to my idols.

These aren’t just phrases on a screen. These are real choices made in real relationships with real people—people I’ve hurt in large and small ways when I cling to the shards of my shattered self instead of embracing the life Christ calls me to live. There are wounds I can’t mend, moments I can’t get back, words I can’t rewind. My sin is deep. My heart aches to think of the vastness of things done and left undone.

Scripture says the Lord examines our hearts. All manner of our sins are known to Him. And our holy God, knowing every ounce of our sin, must “give to each according to his way, according to what his actions deserve” (Jeremiah 17:10). And He did. But Christ intervened, taking the Father’s holy wrath on Himself.

When Christ went to the cross, He wore the dirty rags of my attempts at righteousness, the stench of my selfishness, the weight of my blatant refusal to worship my Creator with all that I am. He suffered, not because God the Father is cruel, but because my sin was heinous and merited punishment. He bled, not because He was weak but because I am. He died, not because they executed Him, but because a sacrifice was required. When Christ went to the cross, He left nothing undone.

I hate my sin. And I hate that I don’t always hate my sin. I am broken, not in a sweet, sentimental, sing-songy way, but in a real, painful, and pain-inducing way. I am broken in a way that often breaks the people around me. I am broken in a way that should, logically speaking, separate me from a holy God. But Christ’s death is not a legend, not a story we tell to sober us into false humility or ankle-deep love. No, Christ’s death is true. His death was full, complete. Our debt has been paid by Jesus’s death, and our hope has been eternally sealed by His resurrection.

I weep with sorrow for my sin. I weep with joy for my redemption. And nothing, not even myself and my sin, will ever separate me from the love of God in Jesus Christ (Romans 8:35). Thanks be to Him.

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211 thoughts on "Sin and Redemption"

  1. Abby Wagner says:

    love these studies that convict me in such a real way. we need to be aware of our sin on a daily basis. i am so thankful it does not separate me from my Holy God. thank you for this! ❤️

  2. Lindsey Osterhaven says:

    Thank you! I loved your thought of “I hate that I don’t hate my own sins.” I wrestle with this a lot. ❤️

  3. Virginia Mhasvi says:

    I love knowing that even “ME” or my sins (public and private) will never separate me from the love of God in Jesus. Because of Christ’s blood shed for my sins, it’s literally an impossible idea for anything to separate me from the Living God. Wow.

  4. lucy rodriguez says:

    i hope romans 8:35-38 is a reminder for all of us on tough days & that it will help us move forward in all our actions / day-to-day activities in a loving manner (:

  5. Lynette Lovelace says:

    This was spot on!

  6. Johanna Jones says:

    Wow! What a perspective! Thank you! ❤️

  7. Gabrielle Caselman says:

    Very grateful for this message. I’m currently in graduate school and surrounded by people who are very opposed to Christianity. It has been incredibly difficult for me to try and balance walking in truth and grace, and I find myself often failing. Many times I take the “wisdom” of the individuals around me as truth rather than Christ’s life and teachings as Truth. I often recognize when I get caught up in this and I’m left feeling incredibly guilty, ashamed, hopeless, and broken. But praise God that nothing in all creation can separate me from the love of God. Not even my own failures or hang-ups. Praises for having a God who is bigger than me. And grace that abounds and is new every morning.

  8. Angela Goetz says:

    Ouch! Feeling the conviction. In a good way lol. Thanks

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