Day 3

A Prayer for When God Seems Silent

from the Psalms for Prayer reading plan

Psalm 77:1-20

BY Guest Writer

Scripture Reading: Psalm 77:1-20

I got the call on a Tuesday. The son we were going to graft into our family through adoption was now staying with his biological family, to be raised by his grandmother. I had already packed a bag for the hospital. We were less than a week away from his due date, and now, there was no due date in sight.

It’s hard to describe the pain of that moment. Four years of infertility. Months of adoption preparation. All the finances invested in growing our family disappeared in an instant, but that paled in comparison to watching our future go up in smoke. The little boy I’d pictured standing between my husband and me, with this dark skin and curled hair, was gone. The thoughts kept pounding at the place between my eyes: I’ll never know what he looks like. I’ll never even know his name.

I’ll be honest: in the moments after that call, I didn’t open up the psalms. Instead, I walked upstairs to the little nursery we’d yet to complete and grabbed the handmade quilt my mother’s best friend had made for the boy. It was meant to warm him as he slept, but now I buried my face in it and wept. I screamed. No one was home but me, and so I let myself go—until my throat quivered and the cries sounded eerily like that of a child wailing for its mother.

The Message translation of Psalm 77 says, “I yell out to my God, I yell with all my might, I yell at the top of my lungs… my life was an open wound that wouldn’t heal” (vv. 1-2). I know what that feels like. I’d guess many of us do. But how often do we give ourselves permission to yell and cry out like this? How often do we express our sorrow and the fullness of our pain? Not often.

In an effort to bypass our grief—in fear that God’s silence will be too much to bear—I believe many of us never ask the questions the psalmist so brutally lays down: Where are you, God? Have you forgotten me completely? I thought you were supposed to be compassionate. But this doesn’t feel like compassion.

Instead, we try to end the pain as quickly as possible, either through secular comfort (read: retail therapy) or spiritual practices (read: small groups, counseling, meditation, and yes, sometimes even Bible reading). But Psalm 77 shows us that we can bring our raw emotion to God. We can ask our honest questions without fear. We can scream at the top of our lungs, and God will still listen.

But the psalmist does not stop with his questions. He asks them, and then he gets up off the floor. It is essential that we bring our honest selves to God, in all our brokenness. But it is just as essential that we are honest about who God is to us. In a place of pain, truth is a hard pill to swallow. But it is the medicine we need most. We need to remember that all His ways are good, even in the midst of our sorrow and pain. The Message translation of the psalm goes on to say:

Once again I’ll go over what God has done, lay out on the table the ancient wonders;
I’ll ponder all the things you’ve accomplished, and give a long, loving look at your acts (vv. 11-12).

I have a history full of examples to pick from to remember God’s character. After all, the psalmist didn’t know Moses and Aaron—he wasn’t present when God parted the Red Sea—but he praised God for it anyway. Jesus hasn’t ended my sickness, but the stories of when He walked on earth prove that He is our Healer. The ancient wonders remind me of the truth: my current circumstances do not outweigh God’s eternal promises.

This is the rhythm of faith. Yell out, and then remember.


Claire Gibson is a writer whose work has been featured in publications including The Washington Post and Entrepreneur Magazine among many others. An Army kid who grew up at West Point, New York, Claire is currently growing roots in Nashville, Tennessee, with her husband, Patrick, their son, Sam, and their dog, Winnie. Her debut novel, Beyond the Point, will be published next year.

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164 thoughts on "A Prayer for When God Seems Silent"

  1. Julie Klompmaker says:

    What God is saying to me through this is for me to come to Him with everything, when I face emotional pain in whatever circumstance, instead of going inside myself to try and process it, that I should just let it out to Him and let Him work in me so that I can grow and be sanctified and be the servant heart He wants me to be. That my heart and mind will be renewed through the wisdom of God and the intimate love with which He wants to give ❤️
    It is learning to wait and trust Him with everything and walking with Him in the meantime. God is so good!!!

  2. Kim Anstaett says:

    Wow, for about a year now God has spoken to me over and over about remembering, memorial stones and pouring memories of His faithfulness over me like rain. I am working on a project that will in the end point to His faithfulness. Thank you for sharing your stories and truths!

  3. Amy Kane says:

    My heart is so broken right now and I’m really angry but I remember and meditate on who God is! He is greater than any other god and He is holy. Lately every time I think about Jesus on the cross tears come to my eyes and what he has done for me and how much he loves! Jesus I love you with all that I am for you are the great I am!

  4. Nina Van Noy says:

    I’m so thankful that we have a God who will listen to our raw pain. He won’t turn us away, and He is always listening. He always comes through with His best plan and answer to my struggles and worries. I want to learn to ask God the tough and scary questions.

  5. Laura Cruz says:

    As I started to read this Psalm, the greatest struggle that I’m going through right now was at the forefront of my mind – infertility. Then to flip to the devotional and have that and adoption be the focus, really felt like a promise from God. As my husband and I are currently discussing starting the adoption process this year. Whether I have a child of my own womb or a child of adoption, this reminded me that God has not forgotten me.

  6. Paige Hewitt says:

    I love this. I love that we can cry out to God in our raw emotions and anger- yet he’s still listening the same as if we were whispering hymns of prayer. Powerful.

  7. Natalie Tyler says:

    Love this chapter and love the way Claire explains it to us and boldly calls us out for our usual attempt to hold back from the lord.

  8. Melody Kruse says:

    This really resonated with me today.

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