Day 11

Give Thanks in Wandering

from the Give Thanks in Wandering reading plan

2 Chronicles 15:1-4, Jeremiah 29:10-14, Mark 9:24, Proverbs 25:2

BY Diana Stone

Text: 2 Chronicles 15:1-4, Jeremiah 29:10-14, Mark 9:24, Proverbs 25:2

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
– Jeremiah 29:13, NIV

Last year when my third son took his last breaths in my arms, I threw back my head in disbelief and screamed, “I don’t understand!” When I lost my twin boys one year earlier, I felt God wrap His arms around me in my grief. I felt it so deeply that there was almost a longing to have that feeling back again as my grief lessened over time.

This time I didn’t feel that same embrace. I felt empty, forgotten, dropped. I began searching for God—where did He go during this? Why had He let my child suffer so much on earth?

Seasons in our lives require us to search for God (Proverbs 25:2). It isn’t that he hides from us as in a game, jumping out at the last second with a “SURPRISE! Sorry you were so late; things could have been different if you’d just looked in the closet first.” It’s more of a withdrawal we experience when our humanity suddenly interrupts our faith and throws our rational concept of God out the window.

How many of us understand God, feel like we’ve got Him figured out? Judging from the standard comments we receive from others in a season of wandering—cliches of certainty like “God has done this for a reason!” and “This must be God’s will!”— it seems many of us have put our Lord in a neat little box.

To my shock, I found it really doesn’t work that way. My wandering often leads to more doubt. I search scriptures, read books, even Google questions—and I have to catch myself at times. I realize I’m looking for an answer that isn’t mine to know yet. Rather than insisting on finding the answer, I can rest in the certainty of the One who is The Answer.

When we wander in search of God, our faith is challenged and shaken. It might make us angry, and we may want to run to something that brings us immediate, earthly answers. Yet, if we allow it, even in the midst of confusion, wandering can lead us closer to a God we may not fully understand but we can completely trust.

When we seek Him, we will find Him—His Word says it’s true. And so we give thanks. We cling to Him and to the promise of Him, and we give thanks. For although we may feel lost, we know He never loses us.

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above.
– from “Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing” by Robert Robinson


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69 thoughts on "Give Thanks in Wandering"

  1. Alise says:

    I can’t help but think of that Narnia quote about Aslan not being safe because he’s really a lion and not a man, but that he is GOOD. I try to understand God from my human perspective and it never works out too well for me because I don’t usually comprehend that he is not human, his ways are utterly different from mine and his thinking much higher. But Im supposed to trust in his goodness rather than in my false perception that he is safe. He’s not safe, he will lead me through thorns and danger and periods of doubt and stress and struggle. But he is GOOD and I can be assured he will not give me anything he has not equipped me to handle. And that’s not a cliche, it’s Biblical truth.

  2. Jessie says:

    Diana (Author of the post)

    I can’t imagine your and others pain from what you shared in this devotional today. I am so so very sorry for the pain you guys have experienced, God is truly amazing and it can be seen in that you are faithful.You trust our God, love and serve Him. Thank you for sharing your heart <3

  3. Kat W. says:

    I’ve read this a few times and exploring it in my journal makes it all the more powerful. Thank you God for the gentle reminder that those who are yours will always be yours.

  4. Betty says:

    This is so good! I recently came out of a season of the wilderness. Wandering was all I knew. Everybody told me to get in the word or make sure there wasn’t something I wasn’t willing to obey, etc. you’ve heard it all I’m sure. I wish someone would’ve said cling to Jesus. Even though you cannot see, feel or hear Him right now just cling. He will see you through. It would’ve made my wilderness a much shorter journey.

  5. Deb McLaughlin says:

    I would like to buy " credit " for Christmas gift for some of my friends to do your bible studies that are available through your application website. I hope this is understandable I sometimes lack the correct tech terms Thanks Deb

    1. Hi Deb! What a wonderful idea. We don\’t have gift cards for our app, but maybe you could give an iTunes gift card to use for the plans? I hope this helps!

      xoxo-Kaitlin for She Reads Truth

  6. Anastasia says:

    Such a wonderful thought that He never loses us! Whether we’re near to Him or running in the other direction or going in circles, He knows, He sees us and He’s right there waiting for us to come back <3

  7. Kristine says:

    I am a doer! Tell me what to do and why and then I am cool with that. This is my biggest struggle with Faith. The wondering…why…how do I fix! This was a great reminder

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