The Sermon on the Mount: Day 20

Grace Day

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Today's Text: Proverbs 30:8

Take this day as an opportunity to catch up on your reading, pray, and rest in the presence of the Lord.

Keep falsehood and deceitful words far from me.
Give me neither poverty nor wealth;
feed me with the food I need.
Proverbs 30:8

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  • Today as well as the last couple days, my anxiety has become overbearing. My husband has been trying to help me to “Be Still,” praying with me, and helping me to see when I overflow my cup with stressors. He pointed out that because my heart is so big, if I see someone struggles I appear to take on some of their burden to try to help them without them knowing (even if I don’t speak to them and just say a little prayer). He suggested that I don’t people watch as much due to my anxiety. I have cried and prayed for God to directly and boldly speak to me so I can have a direct message. Today at work, I wanted to cry coming in as I have separation anxiety from my husband (whom is a firefighter and I’m an ER nurse in Detroit). A couple weeks ago I had stopped a patient whom was violent from grabbing an officer’s gun.. so I’m unsure that had set me off. I also work a lot to manage bills for us aiming to pay things off and try to build a fund for buying a house (I worry about finances as I know God provides). I yearn to be apart of a physical bible study group for women but my church is small where it’s difficult but then when my girlfriend invited me to hers on Wednesday it was nice but due to rotation and varying schedules at work each week; I can’t make a true commitment to it. How do I battle this? How do I battle myself and my nightmares of my childhood? How do I not allow everything to add on to my cup, I don’t do it directly but it appears to latch on?

    • BarbaraH

      Your words really touched me, Shelby. Like you I have battled with anxiety and panic attacks for a long time. I wish I could speak with the wisdom of others who write here. All I can say is that I’ve only been able to survive and find peace by throwing myself into the presence of Jesus, mentally holding His hand and aware that He is with me and is my strong protector. He’ll do the heavy lifting. It’s not my job to sort everything or everyone out. He’s got it. The Psalms help (particularly 23, 121, 131). I’ll be praying for you. And even if you can’t make a true commitment to your friend’s bible study, go when you can … we need others.

    • jessiechatchat

      Yes to what Barbara said above! I get overwhelmed by wanting to do things right, the best way. And there are so many thing that need doing. I’ve been praying my friends prayer over and over, like a mantra: “He is the shepherd; I am the sheep; I know his voice; I follow him.” Just one step at a time. It’s ok to miss a bible study meeting, to miss a bill, to need time to recover from a stressful incident at work. I’m glad that you are so full of care (esp being a nurse!) but I’m ecstatic that God has beautiful, imperfect you (and me!) in his hands. Go when you can to that study, girl!!

  • GOD is good! And I know HE is in control. Times are still very challenging. I get to the point where I get so confused and I can’t think and don’t even know what the next step is. And I’m feeling a lot of pressure! I am meeting with someone today that hopefully will help me sort things out. Your prayers are appreciated! I have a very, very heavy heart! Hopefully this weekend I can get a new email address so it’s still best that I not be contacted through my current email. I know that all of you wonderful godly ladies here are praying.

  • churchmouse

    “Feed me with the food I need.” Yes, Lord. Let me not envy what others have but let me be grateful that You know me so well (You made me!). Let me be content knowing that You feed me with exactly what is best for me. You’re so good to me.

  • I’m so thankful that because of Jesus every day is grace day!

  • Alison MacFarland

    The list for who got into my school musical goes up in a week! I’m praying that I got a spot, but if I don’t I know the Lord has His reasons. I hope this week will fly by!

    • Debbie Gartland

      What an example of faith for someone so young. blessings to you Alison:) No doubt God has prepared you for such a time as this. His plans are always higher than ours <3

    • Kristin Erickson

      Praying for you Alison! Such incredible wisdom to have at such a young age. Fellow actress here who constantly has to remind herself who’s in control – He is and HE has a plan! Just like you said! Good luck to you!

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