Heart preparations


Today's Text: by Sarah

Whenever I get ready to go on a trip, no matter the destination, purpose or duration, I make a list.  A really detailed, really neurotic list.

My list has to be written in a really nice, smooth, flowy pen.  You know, the kind you hoard in your purse or drawer like it is an epi pen and you are an allergic beekeeper.  My life could very well depend on this pen.  Truly.

My list has to be categorized, both in terms of who I am packing for (if you’re a mom, you get this), and in terms of what type of need to meet.  Clothing.  Undergarments.  Toiletries.  Shoes.  Snacks.  Always snacks.

I’m even so insane that I draw in the little boxes to check off so that I can clearly see when something’s packed.  (Draw a line through my precise handwriting?  Never!)

My list is neat.  It’s concise.  It puts my mind at ease and minimizes those heart-stopping moments when the thought flashes that perhaps I forgot essentials like underwear.

Or the trail mix with M&Ms in it.

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We leave for Guatemala with Food for the Hungry in ten days. I haven’t even started my packing list.

We received a suggested list from our trip leader this week, and if I’m being completely honest and vulnerable (a goal of mine when documenting this trip on a daily basis starting August 4th), just reading her list left me feeling pretty danged nervous.

Don’t bring jewelry. 

Don’t bring electronics. 

Bring a color copy of your passport. 

Don’t wear form-fitting clothing and don’t wear shorts. 

Bring your cell phone, but you may or may not be able to use it. 

And if you are spending the night in the village (we are), bring a sleep sack for protection.


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And suddenly I have no desire to make my routine list.

Because, the truth is, I can’t make a list neat enough, categorized enough, or concise enough to prepare me for this trip.

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How could I?

How could I make a list that reminds me to pack heaps of love, but leave judgment at home?

How could I prompt my heart to tuck in generous amounts of empathy, but not to include pity?

How could I detail what clothing and toys need to be sent along with our girls as they go off to stay with my family for the week, and not be struck by how very little I can physically bring to our sponsored child, Olga, in Guatemala?


She is who this week is about.

Our mission on this trip is to see, document and impress upon others (you included) the impact that sponsoring a child can have on an individual.

On a community.

On a world.

On a Kingdom.

I will undoubtedly have moments of discomfort during our week.  Temporary aches and pains, both physically and emotionally.  This, however, is not where my fear lies.

The thought that makes me clammy, that springs tears to my eyes and a catch to my throat is the thought that when it comes down to it, that I won’t respond to extreme poverty and a call to love in the way I am asked to.

I fear that the ugly parts of myself, the parts that revel in cleanliness and comfort, will overtake the part of me that pushes out every worldly, self-preservationist, selfish thought.

I fear that the holes in my soul will overtake the Christ in me.

Your prayers for safety, for the people of Guatemala, and for our hearts are very much appreciated.

Because in spite of my fears, there is Hope.

There is Light.

And there is a Love that covers it all.

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And so long as I have my eyes locked on Jesus, nothing else I could pack will be of much importance.  Except maybe underwear.

And the trail mix with M&Ms in it.

To sponsor a child with Food for the Hungry, please visit here.    A small monthly contribution can make a huge difference in aiding the impoverished and the hungry. I can’t wait to share how your sponsorship is changing and effecting lives in Guatemala..

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  • eradical84 (EllenMR)

    Talk about building His Kingdom! Blessings to you for your honesty Sarah, but He walks with you and you will accomplish His work one little heart at a time.
    Praying for your safety and great adventures to come! :)

  • Bienvenida a Guatemala!

    I was suprised and excited to see your post as I open it up in my home, in, guess where? Guatemala!

    I will say prayers for your trip – and I would recommend packing the underwear and trail mix :)

  • Thank you, Alicia.

  • I appreciate you words.
    Please travel happy & safely

    Thank you God for her
    (Her meaning you)
    Bless you

  • I am praying for you on this trip. My family has such a heart for the children of Guatemala. My son has been there for 2 months now serving with Hope of Life. He loves being there sharing his light for Jesus with children in the orphanage. I pray this trip is such a blessing for you and your group.

    • Sarah

      How amazing, the work your son is doing in Guatemala. Can't wait to see the Lord at work there. Thank you for the encouragement, Jenifer!

  • Blessings on this trip, Sarah! I have spent time in Guatemala, and the native people are lovely – they have great need of Christ's hands and feet through you and Rachael, though. I say only Do not be afraid or fearful, He is with you. Be confident and prepared, and do great things in His name! My prayers are with you.

  • Thank you, Julia!

  • i am praying for your safety, for the people of Guatemala, that Christ leads you, and that you remember your trail mix :) God bless you Sarah & Rachael!!

  • What a great and wonderful thing you are doing. Definitely, a Martha thing. God Bless you both, and the rest of the group. I see you being a great blessing to the children and people of Guatemala. May the Lord bless and keep you, May he turn his face to shine on you,and in all you are doing. I.ll keep you in my prayers. Blessings. Tina. X x x

    • Sarah

      Ha! Love that you brought Martha into this. :). Thank you for your prayers, Tina.

  • DrShanWalks

    Will definitely keep you, your team, and the people you encounter lifted up in prayer!

  • monique(forgiven)

    I will keep you and those travelling with in my thoughts and prayers. May the Lord covers you and take away all fears:) God Bless you all:-)

  • kristi1521

    What a journey you are about to go on. I'm sure your life will be changed in ways that you can not even imagine at this time, but I know God will be there with you every step of the way. I can not wait to here about this journey.

    • Sarah

      Thanks, Kristi! Raechel and I are so excited to share this trip with our community. I have no doubt He will be with us and is at work!

  • Leenda324

    Thanks for this. My first sponsored child (through Compassion) just turned 16 so I will definitely take a look at Food for the Hungry. Blessings as you go.

    • Sarah

      Thank you, Leenda. Bless you for sponsoring your little one for the long haul. I pray we are able to do the same!

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